U should never regret of who u loved, rite? Coz that person sort of reflecting who u were at the particular time~ but maybe, maybe after all these times, I would hold his hand that nite in the car and told him how I felt. It’s not about the person, it’s just… that I try my best even thought I might be got rejected, but then I might not be suffering for that long after that nite; or maybe I still would, but who knows, it doesn’t matter anymore.
The more exp u have,the more sympathetic u become towards certain ppl. When Jess told Celine on the car that he’s been having those nightmares, it touches sth inside of me and make me shiver.
“u were pregnant, and u were lying next to me, naked. U were so beautiful and I wanted to touch u so badly, but u told me not to; but I touched u anyway…”
I start to know that ” touch u anyway ” feeling, that urge to tell someone how much u wanna be with them even if it feels like u two are against the world or sth, but as a matter of fact, u r just against urself, ur heart and make everything more complicated. So easy to say but so hard to do. So u wait and refuse to take any actions even thought you wanna tell someone everything but you end up saying nothing; till u gradually realize that u missed ur shoot and u two both leads ur own separate journey ever after.
O well, even that bitch left the city, i still got irritated every time I heard someone mention her name, and that someone is my mum, farrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
And I just realise, the ‘bitch’ is not just one particular person, it’s that type of people, one left and one appears in my life. FUCK. (BOLD, YES) ERRRRRR, every time i see that face, farrr, just feels NAUSEOUS! I mean, u gonna be kidding me,rite? How can I dislike someone to that extend? Ooo, but glad my girls have the same feeling towards it, wat a relief… that’s what best friend for!!!! We love and hate together!! LOL~~
But thank to fb, hehehehehhhehheheheheehehehehehehheehe, it just made my day even though I had a tough one and am still suffering from massive stomach!! OOO, now I just wish IT wont ‘drop’ by my blog at all, the feeling of that dirty thing read my blog makes me equally nauseous~~I blog for myself and for those I love, not for someone I hate to stalk me~~~
Alrite, enough is enough, tmr will be another tough day~~geeee, and it’s raining outside~~