Dolce Far Niente

昨天,我心血来潮要去看电影,刚好得知amanda女人来悉尼5周年纪念,呵呵,所以就拎个咪咪小蛋糕,奔向burwood了。。

最近,我很迷失,迷失到把和外界一切social都切断了,因为我找不到自己的定位在哪里。所以我無法“假裝”下去,我必須暫時離開,停一停,想一想,看看這段時間發生的事,看看我還愛不愛自己。

facebook神馬一切都是浮雲。。

當生活圈子縮回原來的大小,那些所謂認識的人,connection,都不是自己的,而還會和我聊天,見面,發短信,寫郵件,在我博上留言的人,才是“我的”朋友,真正屬於我的。我可以拉着她們的手講心事的朋友。

那天misty 很貼心的發來短信,外加下面這張‘the queen is on a mission’的圖片,大愛blair,〈3〈3〈3。。 yes, im on a mission of searching for myself. I am in love, no, it’s just a crush for the matter of fact, because love should be reciprocated and sometimes i m confused of which one is worse, the fact that you havent met someone ‘special’ for a long time; or you have a crush on someone ‘special’ but he doesnt know, or maybe, doesnt want to know; or it is me too scared of telling him how i feel because i know the timing is not rite for him. So afraid to show I care, that’s how you can put it…

But i will return, for sure, and stronger, ‘crushless’, dont know how long it will take to kick him out of my heart, but give myself 3 months from now on, shouldnt take this long I suppose, but yer…three months…

amanda 昨天抱怨我博上的照片都是無頭的,來,給你幾個大頭。哈哈哈。

還有,以後和我拍照,不許擠胸。。。!做人要低調加厚道。。

昨天的電影”Eat Pray Love”,是我最近看的最輕鬆的一個電影,給了我一些啓示。

“It’s one of the quietest, loneliest places in Rome. The city has grown up around it over the centuries. It feels like a precious wound, a heartbreak you won’t let go of because it hurts too good. We all want things to stay the same. Settle for living in misery because we’re afraid of change, of things crumbling to ruins. Then I looked at around to this place, at the chaos it has endured – the way it has been adapted, burned, pillaged and found a way to build itself back up again. And I was reassured, maybe my life hasn’t been so chaotic, it’s just the world that is, and the real trap is getting attached to any of it. Ruin is a gift. Ruin is the road to transformation.”

To lose balance sometimes for love is part of living a balanced life.

所以,my bottom line is, if he loves me,then i m willing to lose the balance,oh wait, it’s the fact that he doesnt then i m ‘imbalanced’,so the thing is if he’s ready to lose the balance with me, that’s that..

————————華粒粒的流水賬————————–

很久很久之前的一個launch,那天晚上還吃到了傳說中的熱狗。

上個禮拜四的水屋,不容易聚齊了一幫子女人。。包括qian,多不容易。

那天我是拍照的,所以照片里看不到我。。-______-”’

禮拜四白天,去sexpo,汗,就是很多fresh meat 走來走去。。

典型的週日家庭晚餐。。

那天在kim家里的火鍋,姐姐們都很給力。。

random…下面一包零食,太好笑了,陳漢典,哈哈哈哈

某一天和s去看《陳真》,不錯的。。。

現在辦公室里的抽屜里都裝滿了零食。。

某天中午和misty吃飯。。

i have something for da trees<3

又跑去燙了個頭。。

昨天中午放風時間,跑出去書店溜達一下。

hug bell =D ‘ding ding ding, I need a HUG, lol’ =P

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2 thoughts on “Dolce Far Niente

  1. woman….我不是存心挤胸的….是角度问题,要不这样,我把胸部给你,你把你的美腿给我~!deal or not deal?

    • deal的呀。。。你有本事么就给我呀。。。呜呜呜,腿总有一天会瘦的,胸是怎么都不会大的。。呜呜呜。。

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