爱,或许不持久

当我们开始一段新感情的时候,我们在期待什么?

也许有太多的期待,让感情变得不纯粹。当你期待他拿着鲜花的时候,他却空着手,也许一束花2周就谢,可收到花的一瞬间,还是会看见芬芳;当你期待他每晚打电话来,可是他却从不打来,你会开始怀疑,他是否真实存在;当你期待他记得纪念日,可是他却从不提起,或许前任让你学会对日期敏感,在重要的日子里都会收到小惊喜,可是这次的他却连网上的状态都还是单身;也许你告诉我你不再相信女人,而我也告诉过你我从不相信男人,那么我们这样的两个人在一起的目的是不是很有可疑?

可惜我是不说的人,口口声声把communication的重要性挂在嘴边,但在一起之后反而变得还不如朋友。现在的我们就是吃饭,睡觉,几乎没有交流。在一起的时候,我常常呈现抽离状态。周围的朋友陆陆续续都开始新的恋情,每天华丽丽地晒幸福。而我的幸福里,都是我自己。对于外表,我一直还是在乎的,是的,我就是肤浅而鼠目寸光的人,我看不到未来,也放不下身段去承认什么。上一次我是因为somewhat ashamed所以从不带出去见人,这一次,也是。

爱只是存在于忽来忽去忽明忽灭的记忆中,白字黑字的笔尖下,现实生活有太多不定的因素,让爱无处安放

我始终不懂怎样去“爱”,anyone else?

相信爱,但一定不会持久。

 

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  1. I guess to some extent, you get used to being alone. You get used to not expecting phone calls & having nothing to do at night. You don’t expect to turn around to open arms any longer. The small sounds of him have been replaced by silence. Your thoughts echo through your head, with no one to share them with. All in all, being alone isn’t terrible, it just hurts like hell

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